Bundled Thoughts

I've realized that I have a lot of thoughts floating through my head as I'm sure most of you reading this do. It seems that towards the end of the day I especially get my mind racing, thinking of this and that. Well I've decided to keep a personal blog to release these thoughts. You are welcome to join the ride...

I feel as though two days ago a veil has been lifted from my eyes and I've seen that most of my actions and desires have been for selfish gain ever since graduating college a year ago. I didn't have a sadistic or evil plan that caused this, I just think I haven't made a deliberate attempt to continue to seek God and his plan after graduation.

Here's some circumstances that led me to this revelation:

These last few months I've participated in two home businesses. One of them was a multi-level marketing commerce business, the other an internet marketing business. Both are legit and proven, but I found my only motivation to seek success in these avenues was to gain money for myself. After several weeks of seeking these businesses, I was left a more hallow person who was even more confused.

I continue to work on my house, to improve it and finally complete it. This work is tiring, especially when performed by oneself with no social interaction. It has left me realizing, once again, that my own wisdom and talents really won't get me anywhere, and that I can't do much on my own.

Lastly, I feel as though my current job and future career outlook is not that which seems to be a good fit for me. This has been a great deal of confusion and sometimes worry for me which has also caused me to drift back to seeking the Lord.

So, I'm going to try to set my priorities straight and purposeful seek out opportunities to fellowship with fellow Christians, serve others, and do a better job staying in tune with God through reading Bible, deliberate prayer.

Finally, I'd appreciate prayers for discernment and wisdom in knowing what career, graduate major, job, etc. that God wants me to work towards.